There is no subject as
precious to me as the story of how the God of the universe chose to entwine
His life in mine. That truth is doubly amazing to me when I think of just
how ordinary a person I am. My name is known by only a few hundred people.
I was never a movie queen, and I didn’t make any scientific discoveries. I
was not the first to do anything, or the best, or the fastest or smartest or
prettiest. My testimony is of a Saviour Who chose to shower me with His
love despite my having absolutely nothing to offer Him in return.
I met Jesus as Healer
before I met Him as Saviour. When I was five years old I had an allergic
condition that caused me to break out in hives all over my skin and mucous
membranes. The doctor in our little Mississippi town couldn’t identify the
allergen, but the medication he instructed my mother to give me made the
itching and burning go away for a few hours at a time. My father was an Air
Force Sergeant, and he travelled over the state doing military recruitment.
My mother couldn’t drive a car, we had no telephone, and we lived in the
country. One night when he was away from home, my problem attacked me with
a vengeance, and it was then that my mother discovered that we had run out
of medicine. In desperation Mother said, “Why don’t we ask Jesus to make
you well?” I had heard of Jesus when I went to my grandmother’s church, and
the Sunday School teacher said He loved children, so I knelt down next to
Mother and repeated her words in the simplest of prayers: “Jesus, please
make me well.” My skin stopped itching and burning, and I fell asleep. The
condition never returned.
My family moved to
Montgomery, Alabama, when I was ten years old. I was very shy, and I found
it painful to be the “new kid” each time we moved. My younger sister Lyn
was pretty and outgoing and always had lots of friends, and by comparison I
felt lonely, ugly, and friendless. I kept a diary and wrote poetry and long,
secret letters that I hid under my bed. Our parents gave us lots of love
and involved themselves in our lives, but I don’t think they ever knew how
sad I was inside. However, they made an important decision – one that would
change my life. They began attending a little non-denominational church
where the Bible was preached.
Mr and Mrs Brown
taught the Sunday School class for my age group. They invited the class to
a wiener roast at their house one night. Although I dreaded social
occasions, my mother persuaded me to go. Mrs. Brown saw me standing apart
from the other children, and she approached me and began to tell me about
Jesus. I remembered that He was the One I had asked to make me well. In
very simple words, she told me how He had come to earth and died on a cross
and risen from the dead. I had known about Him, but I had not realized that
He died for ME. She said, “He wants to be your friend,” and she told me how
to accept Him as my Saviour. At that point I ran away from her and went to
eat a hot dog. I pushed her words from my mind. No one could really want
to be my friend!
When I was in bed that
night, it seemed that a tape recorder was playing back the conversation with
Mrs. Brown, word for word. Suddenly I understood! I realized that I was a
sinner and that Jesus had died to take the punishment for my sins. I began
to cry uncontrollably. To this day I can remember the feel of the hot tears
rolling down the sides of my face and into the pillow as I was lying on my
back in the bed. What a horrible thought that this perfect God-Man died for
ME on that cross! But she had told me more. I did what she said and asked
God to forgive me and to send Jesus to live in my heart. The experience of
salvation takes many different forms, because God is so creative and
personal with all His children. Some feel a quiet peace, some feel nothing
at all. Some have a very emotional response. The apostle Paul saw a
blinding light and fell to the ground. What really matters is the truth
that God will “save to the uttermost” those who come to Him. (Hebrews 7:25)
When Jesus came to live in me, He brought several buckets of tears – this
time happy tears – and the cleanest, most heavenly sensation I have ever
known. Here was a Friend Who would be with me forever! The next day I
wrote it down in the papers under my bed, and that is how I can be precise
about the date it happened. I became a Christian on March 20, 1955, and
that day is still very special to me now, fifty-five years later.
In the years that
followed, the Lord taught me how to walk with Him. My mother and sister
gave their hearts to Him soon after I did, and we worshiped together at home
and in church. Daddy didn’t come to Jesus until much later, after I was
grown, but he was very supportive of his Christian family and never tried to
hinder us. I developed a thirst for the Word of God that propelled me to
study the Bible from cover to cover. I talked to Jesus and listened for His
voice in my heart. In focusing on the Lord, I was able to overcome much of
the crippling shyness that had marked my early childhood. I even won two
speech awards in school, and I shared my faith when opportunities arose. I
did continue to write poetry, and later wrote songs, always about Him. My
mother was very musical, and she taught my sister and me to sing in harmony
while she played the piano. Throughout our teen years Lyn and I sang
regularly in church.
My high school years
were spent in Tachikawa, Japan, where my father was stationed with the Air
Force. A teenage girl named Yoko often came to my house to practice
English, and I learned a little of her language too. I also told her about
Jesus, and she asked Him into her heart. I will see her in Heaven one day.
Many of the missionaries spent time at the little American church we
attended. It was a real joy to work with them in the field as often as
possible.
From earliest memory,
I knew I would be a nurse when I grew up. I took care of my dolls and frogs
and turtles and cats and played “hospital” when I was little, and at age
eighteen I cemented the decision by enrolling in a baccalaureate nursing
program. Caring for the sick is a very practical way to demonstrate the
love of the Great Physician, and I really believe I was called to this type
of service. It has been a privilege to nurture sick bodies and minds back
to a healthy state.