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It was not you

'It was not you that sent me hither, but God.'

Genesis Chapter 45 Verse 8

I never tire of reading the story of Joseph. Anyone who has had difficulties or unfathomable trials in their life can take great comfort from these glorious chapters in God's Word. Thank you Lord, for Joseph and his brothers!

I find that I have no sooner said to myself that things cannot get any worse for me - that they do! Often it seems to me to be one heavy stroke after another. I rise and seem to get my head above the water line for a little while then bang, down I go again! Each time I go down, I wonder if I will ever reach the surface and the light again.

It is at times like this that it is all too easy to look around and be envious of others. Why do these things always seem to happen to me? Why are these things against me? Why is God against me?
Yep! I am no sooner down than I am looking for someone to blame. It cannot be me! What have I done now to deserve this? Or I say, "God is in control of everything. It is His doing. God is to blame!" Is it just me, or have you had these thoughts as well?

Then anger against God sets in. I say to myself, "No point in reading the Bible as I cannot believe a word He tells me these days! No point in praying because I've been praying for these things for years without an answer. He is not listening to me. He is not interested in my prayers!"
Oh! Poor me! Who is like me? If I were truly a Christian then these thoughts would not enter my head and these things would not be happening to me.


Read the story of Joseph! Sold by his brothers, taken from his home and family, taken to a different country, thrown into jail for a crime he did not commit and forgotten by those whom he helped bail out!

The story does not make any sense if we only read an isolated chapter. We must look at the big picture, the whole story. Only then will we marvel at God's goodness, mercy and love.
God and I were not talking to each other earlier this week. Things had plummeted badly for me and it seemed that no matter what I tried, it failed! I could do nothing right, yet I did not know what I was doing wrong!

I had been praying earnestly for certain things to happen in my life, yet the opposite seemed to be my portion. I found this so disheartening that my spirit failed, and as it did, things got even worse! I was hurt and I was angry with my God. I said, "Why did you let these things happen? It would have been just as easy for You to bless as to withhold."

I dreaded getting up in the morning. I hated myself and my life, and I wasn't very pleased with God either. So what changed, or what caused me to rethink things?

The answer -  A good night's sleep! Rest!

I had been attacked when I was physically weak and I was unable to fight against the wiles of the Evil One. The more he took advantage of my weakness the more defeated and deflated I became.

But God!

Only two little words, yet they mean so much to us! God stepped in and as He did with Peter as he began to sink beneath the waves, he grabbed my hand and lifted me up. He will not let us suffer beyond what we are able to bear. He had mercy upon me, and, because He delighted in me, He delivered me.

He delivered me - not from my trials and difficulties - they still remain - but He delivered me from myself! I had been viewing my life chapter by chapter and sometimes even verse by verse. 
I was not seeing the big picture, the whole story. Only God knows the way that I take. He knows how to deliver His own. He knows how to bless and to set us free.

Having enjoyed a good nights rest, I felt stronger and more refreshed in body this morning. The first thing I wanted to do was to pray. Then I had a hunger for His Word. I read the story of Joseph from start to finish - halting at the words at the head of this post - and I marvelled at the love of God for His people.

'It was not you that sent me hither, but God' My life is mid-chapter or even mid-verse and I have an enthusiastic hope and confidence regarding the outcome of things. My friend, do not make the same mistakes that I have made. Let God finish what He has started and don't try to get in His way.

It is God who has placed me were I am. It is God who has ordered my circumstances.  And it's the same for you!  It is all of grace and all of God.
I surrender my all to Him today in confidence that He does all things well.
I may get in His way from time to time.

But God

Author : Iain Mackenzie  Edited by : Pastor Al Moak